safely home.

by tyler:

that last photo was the last photo on the roll kindof a thing. its not the last photo we took but whatever.

it is 6:44am here in Oregon, i tried to sleep longer, but was awake, so i thought i'd take advantage of that. it is beautiful outside: the leaves and the trees are slowly waking up as the sun decides to shed some light on them. i love this state. it is so beautiful.

i am having a cup of tea this morning. i found some Tetley "British Blend" in the cupboard that i must have bought last Christmas when i last came back from the UK. It's not as good, it tastes a little flat, but it is better than no tea at all, i can say that.

i not sure really where to begin reaclimation. i know i need to do a bunch of laundry, and stop by the school this afternoon, but i am kindof in a daze. not only was yesterday's (granted yesterday encompasses a good 20 hours or so of travel time in which i was awake) travel leave me a bit knackered, but the whole festival, the whole trip wants to be sat with for a while. this is the way it always is with me. there might not be any one thing that i feel compelled to think about or process, but i just want to sit and think about it or just sit and think and rest. this is the transition process: sitting and thinking. i finished a book called Sidheartha (forgive my spelling) on the plane yesterday, so i really don't feel any shame in that response at all.

the sunflowers i planted before i left are now taller than me and the corn is ready to pick through. it is amazing to me how things grow in the dirt. before i left, i would go out to the garden to pull weeds and look at the potato plants and onions with huge bulbs pushing themselves out of the ground, and wonder with awe at how such a thing happened. i wonder how my pumkins are doing.

Alex and i did very well traveling yesterday. we had been arguing quite often (as lovers do) when we would travel from place to place and then the other night, we talked about it and realized that we were in a way acting counterproductively. i wanted to be the travel hero and save her not knowing where we were going by taking her there triumphantly. no time to explain my love, just follow me and i will take you where you need to go. it wasn't the male stubborn thing of not knowing where he going and not asking directions; i am not above asking directions and to be honest, i usually do know where i am going, i think alex would vouch for that as well. i do have an odd intuition about cities and traveling. however, she does not have a deficiencey in travel and or cities, and doesn't really need rescuing. the gesture, though valiant, was just not needed. on the other side of it, when i sensed alex doubting my understanding of where we were going, it got me just as flustered. i told her that i was a "big boy" and that i did this before without her and could do it again. sounds rude, but the same was true of her (aside from the big boy part, cause she's a girl). once we realized that neither of us were "saving" the other, we simply divied up the responsibilities and worked as a team instead of like heros. it worked a heck of alot better. so there you have it for relationship counciling 101. alot of times people don't need saving. a hero being out of work just means that there are very capable people involved, which can't be a bad thing, yeah?